I wanted to take my time to post this as I feel like if I did it last night, I would have been overtly emotional, and I think it did me a world of good. My partner and I had our friends from Hamilton come over to watch the game, and as an emotional roller coaster as it was (things were thrown around after the Tavares non-goal, lol), when they ultimately lost my friend and I were inconsolable - heads hanged, slumped over, etc. But yet, our partners tried to console us - Tampa's a ridiculously good team, that was nothing to be ashamed of, they might win the cup for a 3rd time, etc. And that's when it came out - it wasn't really about us; it was just to shut up the doubters. The trolls on twitter, and the assholes on this forum like Lee-Bo, who make you feel stupid to want to cheer for the Leafs. The people who when Matthews scored his 60th, just commented "how about you win a round?" They are 100% bullies, and that why we wanted the Leafs to win more than anything else - just so the bullying would stop.
And then it hit me - as much as the Leafs loss sucks, I got to watch the game with my best friends, and my partner who I love so much, who was willing to console me and talk me out of it when I was at my absolute worst. I have a wonderful band, great friends, great teammates in my rec sports leagues - life is good overall, and that's the important thing. If the trolls on this forum and elsewhere need to be "ha ha, I was right, you're all stupid for believing" - if they need that superiority in order to feel good about themselves, I can only imagine how sad and pathetic their personal lives have to be in order to take solace in punching people when they're down. Even if the Leafs won the cup, they'd find a way to try and bring you down. They can have solace in their victories - I'll still able to find my own.
Team wise, I don't think it's time to blow anything up, but some tinkering is definitely necessary. I would be shopping for a 2nd line centre, and not that I think they should (or even can) move Tavares, but I think it's time that he moves to the wing. I would revisit the J.T. Miller rumors in the off season and see if there's anything there. Something like Bunting-Matthews-Marner, Tavares-Miller-Nylander would be sweet. I don't think they can afford Mikheyev, as much as I'd like to see him stay, and I think Holl and Kerfoot need to go - not that they're terrible players, but their salaries can be used in different ways, and both are pending UFAs. I'd like full time spots on the team for Sandin and Liljegren, and I'd like to take a couple more cracks for Bunting/Kampf/Kase type players for the bottom two lines - some cheap but good depth. Some quickness, toughness, etc.
Lastly, a little analogy - I always loved hockey, but never played as a kid. It wasn't until I got my first full-time job that I decided at 25 I was going to buy some equipment and learn to play the game. I play in two leagues - one an intramural league through my local University, the other the ASHL "beer" league. I've been playing for 15 years now, and in both leagues, we came close but never won the big one. We won our division in the ASHL a few times, but never progressed far in the facility tournament. Likewise in the intramural league, we made it to the championship game 3 years in a row, but never could get over that hump. And it sucked, because ever since I started playing hockey, I just wanted one championship. I just wanted to know what it felt like. Regardless, we'd always come back with the same team with the same guys and give it another crack each and every year - and most importantly, playing hockey with my friends is fun.
Well, this year, our team won our facility in the ASHL! In the division championship game, we were down 3-1, and yours truly who never even played hockey until he was 25 scored the game tying goal en route to victory. It was great, and it made all the times that we came close, and all the heartbreaks worth it.
To summarize - hockey isn't life; it's a fun pass time, but there's more important and beautiful things in life. Try and focus on those. And one day the Leafs will win - a series, a championship, etc. And it will be awesome.