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Depression and Anxiety

Good luck to you Rick. Though I understand the difficulty in getting motivated, I believe a real focus on your overall health and fitness will be necessary and beneficial in helping you achieve your goals. I'm trying not to preach as I'm in poor shape, but I truly believe in balanced approaches. Hard to get the mind healthy when the body isn't and vice versa. The more I read of Dr. Gabor Mate's work, the more I come to understand that there is no separation between body and mind. Reading "When the Body Says No" changed my outlook on life and was the catalyst for me quitting my job and I've been happier and healthier, though financially poorer for it.
 
A long-term study initiated by Boston University researchers on brain trauma injuries  in athletes and otters in general (CTE or Chronic Trauma Encephalapathy), found that it varies from person to person, affecting & impairing their memory, mood, behaviour, even the ability to think.

Protein abnormalilies were found, via post mortem,  in those affected by brain trauma.

A very worthy read:
http://www.thehockeynews.com/articles/53089-Brain-disease-CTE-hits-athletes-differently-brain-and-behaviour-study-suggests.html
 
Hey.  Yesterday was awful.  Today is a little better.  My anxiety is spinning round and round, unable to think clearly.  I'm taking extra medication - hoping that will work.  I'm on 11 prescriptions these days.  I have to bust through these dark days or I'll end up back in hospital.
 
Rick said:
Hey.  Yesterday was awful.  Today is a little better.  My anxiety is spinning round and round, unable to think clearly.  I'm taking extra medication - hoping that will work.  I'm on 11 prescriptions these days.  I have to bust through these dark days or I'll end up back in hospital.
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I had another bout, started just after Halloween and lifted late January, but still not sleeping well.  Definately not as bad as last time.  This time I used the EAP program offered through work.  I was loathe to go that route but my doctor highly recommended it.  All i can offer to you is, out last it, it will pass. 
 
I don't know if im getting better or worse. Social anxiety and anxiety in general is lower, but I do different things to punish myself, meh I dunno.
 
Rick said:
Hey.  Yesterday was awful.  Today is a little better.  My anxiety is spinning round and round, unable to think clearly.  I'm taking extra medication - hoping that will work.  I'm on 11 prescriptions these days.  I have to bust through these dark days or I'll end up back in hospital.
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Rick, big hugs man. I'm sure that this winter hasn't helped much (weather wise). Hang in there. We're all here anytime you need to talk, listen, whatever.
 
Severe depression is so much fun, 10 years and counting. Don't think it's been as bad as it is now for a very long time. It's also very comforting when your doctor tells you that if no pills have helped you so far, it's not likely that any other will either. And recently I got to try "the most efficient" medicine, but with more side-effects, results? More thoughts about suicide, so great. The last possible solution is ECT. It's so frustrating, I know that I can't keep on living like this for long, and at the same time I don't know if it's possible to get any better. So I just don't know what to do, I don't want to suffer for the rest of my life.
 
Stebro said:
Severe depression is so much fun, 10 years and counting. Don't think it's been as bad as it is now for a very long time. It's also very comforting when your doctor tells you that if no pills have helped you so far, it's not likely that any other will either. And recently I got to try "the most efficient" medicine, but with more side-effects, results? More thoughts about suicide, so great. The last possible solution is ECT. It's so frustrating, I know that I can't keep on living like this for long, and at the same time I don't know if it's possible to get any better. So I just don't know what to do, I don't want to suffer for the rest of my life.
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Stebro, we don't know one another but I want to pass along positive thoughts and energy your way.  I am sorry that you are suffering and I hope that things start to turn positively.  Stay strong.
 
Stebro said:
Severe depression is so much fun, 10 years and counting. Don't think it's been as bad as it is now for a very long time. It's also very comforting when your doctor tells you that if no pills have helped you so far, it's not likely that any other will either. And recently I got to try "the most efficient" medicine, but with more side-effects, results? More thoughts about suicide, so great. The last possible solution is ECT. It's so frustrating, I know that I can't keep on living like this for long, and at the same time I don't know if it's possible to get any better. So I just don't know what to do, I don't want to suffer for the rest of my life.
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Hey man, I went through the same type of scenario. This doesn't mean I know how you feel right now though, but all I can say that over time, for me it got better. So as helpless as you feel right now, please know that getting better, being happier, can happend.

Now this doesn't mean there won't always be some bad days, but it's not as much of a lost cause as I know you probably feel like right now.

If you ever need to talk, even if you want to keep it private, please don't hesitate to PM me on here.

Keep pushing forward brother, I believe in your ability to get healthy, even if you don't right now.
 
Stebro said:
Severe depression is so much fun, 10 years and counting. Don't think it's been as bad as it is now for a very long time. It's also very comforting when your doctor tells you that if no pills have helped you so far, it's not likely that any other will either. And recently I got to try "the most efficient" medicine, but with more side-effects, results? More thoughts about suicide, so great. The last possible solution is ECT. It's so frustrating, I know that I can't keep on living like this for long, and at the same time I don't know if it's possible to get any better. So I just don't know what to do, I don't want to suffer for the rest of my life.
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Hi Stebro, I don't know you personally either but if you're at the end of a rope, try a book called "You Are The Placebo" by Dr. Joe Dispenza.

The gist of it is pretty much about how by the age of 35, our brains have pretty much seen all they're going to get so we've "hardwired" our thoughts to react to anything the same way, over and over again. Wake up, feel the same, do the same things that those thoughts told you to do, feel the same thing after they're done, go to bed and repeat.

The book shows you exactly why you feel the way you do with science. It isn't a fluffy "feel good" Wednesday and kill yourself on Thursday kind of thing. It actually will make you think about how you think.

I guarantee that you will find hope in that book.

Either way, I hope you're in a better place now than when you wrote your post and you can PM me any time too if you want to just shoot the you know what.

All the best.




 
lol got picked up by the police the other day, they thought that i was gonna do something stupid
 
Stebro said:
lol got picked up by the police the other day, they thought that i was gonna do something stupid
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Hey man,

Just letting you know you've got people here that care about you and if you need to talk you know where you can find us.
 
So over the passed few months I've developed a chronic cough and pain in my chest.

It baffles me that I keep getting weird things like this happen, I'm only 27!! Now I'm worried it could be something more concerning. The Walk-In doctors keep saying I'm fine, but they're not doing any kind of diagnostic! I'd rather be fine, then I wouldn't have to see those idiot doctors.

Anyway, we'll see what happens, I have an appointment on Monday with my GP, but it's definitely been weighing on my mind.
 
Bender said:
So over the passed few months I've developed a chronic cough and pain in my chest.

It baffles me that I keep getting weird things like this happen, I'm only 27!! Now I'm worried it could be something more concerning. The Walk-In doctors keep saying I'm fine, but they're not doing any kind of diagnostic! I'd rather be fine, then I wouldn't have to see those idiot doctors.

Anyway, we'll see what happens, I have an appointment on Monday with my GP, but it's definitely been weighing on my mind.
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I was constantly coughing.  Doctor listened to my lungs, they sounded fine to him.  They did a chest x-ray, which was inconclusive.  That lead to a MRI, which found... a lump in my neck.  I'd swear it was my chest.  Have them look at your entire airway.
 
Given the events of the last 24 hours (RIP Robin Williams), I hope people are continuing to talk to their close ones.  If I can help in any way let me know.  I have 2 good ears and am willing to listen.  The Leafs...life in general... anything. 

I am not a doctor and I will not know exactly what you are going through, but I am here to listen - I know that even that may not be enough.

PM me if you would like to talk.
 
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Given the events of the last 24 hours (RIP Robin Williams), I hope people are continuing to talk to their close ones.  If I can help in any way let me know.  I have 2 good ears and am willing to listen.  The Leafs...life in general... anything. 

I am not a doctor and I will not know exactly what you are going through, but I am here to listen - I know that even that may not be enough.

PM me if you would like to talk.
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I'd like to second that.
 
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